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009: you fall away from your past

2009-08-25T21:04:00.002+08:00

This space has been collecting too much dust. It's so sad that my wannabe password-protected blog lasted me a grand total of nine posts including this. I guess I just never feel like blogging anymore.

Okay, not true. I always do feel like blogging. I miss talking to my bunny babies (see above) ): It's just that there are many other important things to do. And blogging would be too strong an evidence that I am not spending my time doing all those important things... Or so I thought.

But I decided I still want to blog. And I will, some time soon hopefully. I kind of want a new space though... but like I don't know. We'll see how it goes.

008: got you looking for a lifeline

2009-07-13T21:26:00.005+08:00

Life has not been exciting. Because poor people don't get to enjoy life... Okay, not true. Only poor Arina does not get to enjoy life. ): You see I'm usually poor as a result of spending too much on things that actually make me happy, so I don't really complain because the sadness I feel from being poor is offset from the happiness of nice new things. This time though, I am poor without getting to feel the joy of having new things. Blame it on the ~~a-a-a-a-a-alcohol~~ water that I stupidly spilt on my brother's laptop. Which ended up costing me a very angry sibling and seven.hundred.freaking.bucks.to.get.the.stupid.machine.fixed. ): I didn't think I would be this sad poor, but oh myyyy I so am. Need.to.learn.to.stop.being.such.a.materialistic.bitch. Doesn't help that my friends are on a shopping spree and are very sensitively dragging me along to watch them shop. (By friends, I mean Shawn.) Although I do admit it's pretty gratifying to see someone else happy as a result of shopping since I don't get to do it for myself. Must remember to consider being a personal shopper if all else fails.

Looking at the way things are going... "all else fails" is very likely to happen. ): Enough said about the completely fucked up CT2s in the last post. And well I thought then that Prelims was going to be better. But I just devised a new Prelims study plan and looking at it gives me this very nauseating feeling, honestly. ):
(As you can see, I am making it look very serious and somber and thinking this might actually make a difference although I know deep down my sorry heart that no matter how the study plan looks, it.is.not.going.to.make.any.difference.) It's very scary to see how many things there are to do. And I really don't see myself getting through it and I seriously feel like puking everytime I see it...which is weird. I don't even feel like puking on roller coasters. And urghhh this is not fun. Bleak bleak life bleak bleak future. BLEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAK

007: a distant echo

2009-07-07T18:44:00.003+08:00

So, today marked the first school day of school since the holidays... but I didn't have any trouble sinking into the dreadful life of school. I missed first days when we came back from holidays and were still in happy ditsy holiday moods. ):

But this is all for the better Arina, the faster you get into the mood the faster you.can.start.studying.for.Prelims...

Notice I am not talking about how the CTs went... In two words, abso(fucking)lutely screwed. But I'm over it really. I am over the fact that I did so damn badly and I am ready to move on with my life. No, I don't even want to know my scores (or the lack of them) because it's not hard to accurately gauge my results when there was not a single paper I could do. I wish I was exaggerating... But I'm not):

But, like I said I am ready to move on with my life. I really really really HONESTLY need to start studying my butt off. I wish I thought studying was not important and that I foresee alot of other open doors for my future. But no, my future as I see it is bleak bleak bleak and I need need need to do decently for my ALevels so that I can at least slightly savage my bleak future.

On a much happier note, it was nice seeing everyone back in school today! (: Haha I think my friends celebrated post-CTs indulging in porn because everyone came back dirtier and hornier. TSK YOU PEOPLE. But good entertainment and I couldn't imagine how I would be surviving school life if it wasn't for them making each day happier and so much more bearable yay (:

Will do something productive now! (Promise I will not be distracted by the Sims. I vow not to play it any time outside the weekends... despite my excitement at redecorating my SUPER CUTE new house.)

006: everyday a fly day

2009-06-27T16:42:00.002+08:00

I have officially officially given up trying to cram for CTs. This was not supposed to happen but I am thoroughly upset as it is, I will not try and ruin my mood by trying to study anymore.

Instead I will devote my time into the Sims 3. Yes, I have finally succumbed myself to it. I said I wouldn't until after CTs, but I realise now it doesn't make a difference. Why not make myself happier earlier?

So yes, I am off to live a new life. One I can marry Jason Mraz and where we can cycle to work and cook for each other and woohoo in public places.

005: fix the world up for you

2009-06-23T22:52:00.004+08:00

Anyhowwwwwwww, WHY SO CUTE!!

004: disaster button

2009-06-22T22:08:00.002+08:00

I said I wasn't going to pin my hopes on extended holiday, but now that they're really not extended ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):

003: a gift from a garden to a flower

2009-06-20T22:20:00.002+08:00

Today, I hit my sister's nose with a piece of paper because she was talking rubbish. She said, "NOOOOO! Not my nose! It's my birthday present!" Great, so I'm not the only crazy person in the house.

Yes, my life is too boring and I have nothing more to blog about.):

002: a sleeping planet with a molten core

2009-06-19T21:32:00.005+08:00

This "trying to cram everything in these measly days I have left" is very depressing, but thank god for Snow Patrol, who makes like the best study songs... and this youtube video, that injects life into me automatically.

So cuteeeeeeee!!! I have watched this at least fifty times and it makes me way happier each time. I really want a pet bunny, but I don't think I'm ready to have another heave of responsibility. I mean, just.look.at.the.state.of.the.house.
and.the.number.of.things.I.have.to.do.each.day.just.so.it.doesn't.start.looking.like.a.pig.sty.
No, I am not complaining... not really... Mm, the point is. that I am not ready for a bunny. I will stick to watching the bunny eating parsley video for happiness.

001: welcome to the dollhouse

2009-06-18T22:01:00.002+08:00

Ahh it feels good to finally have a blog again. There were so many things to rant about over the past many days but I never got to do it gratifyingly.

I've wasted my half an hour break to get this up though, so I cannot have a nice wholesome entry now... And it's not like there's much to say. I have been trying to study and it's not fun. I am screwed, as usual. I am at about Day5 of my study schedule. Meaning, I have 15 more study days to complete... in the next 10 days. ):